For the first and last time, I will spell out what I am...

I'm not atheist, but I have problems with all religions. Is there a god. Would life really be better if there wasn't? Is there a Christian, Hindu, etc... god? I don't know.

What I do know is this. Everytime I look out into the world I'm amazed by how beautiful and ugly the world can be. I don't know if I believe in absolute evil, or good. I only know that  god is something beyond what I can describe. God is everywhere and in everything, but its not good or bad, and more like just life.

I'm amazed by every breath every creature on this planet takes. How many times a human heart beats in a lifetime, and how unlike the buildings that surround me, a person can feel something completely unknown-- something, that can't be explained or described, but only felt. That feeling of the unkown is what I want to call God. It's the feeling that you know there has to be something beyond what we think of this world, and once you've felt it, you know something that can't be shared through words, but only through emotion and experience. You can search all the books of the world, and you'll never find a true answer. The answers are only felt, not seen, or touched, but felt in a special way that goes beyond the senses, beyond truth.

I think there is something to be said of the supernatural. I think there is something to be said of god. I don't hate religion, but I think they've forgotten their true purposes. Religions around the world have all tried to do the same thing, and have all failed miserably. Instead of trying to bring us closer to the unknown, or god, they've driven us to murder, and self-hatred. That's not what god is. God is life. Its that force that drives you to see the beautiful in life, but in doing so exposes the overwhelming ugly in the world. Should you stop practicing your own religion? No, but realize that God is something that goes beyond your religion, and that your religion's, like all others, purpose is to experience the unknown.

Am I agnostic... I don't know. Am I spiritual? I don't know. Am I theistic? I don't know. What I do know is that there is something that I can't put into words, but that I feel everytime I look out at the blue sky, and green grass, and feel a peace in this ugly world, that would be impossible without there being something beyond me.